Anticlimax

Well, after all the events of yesterday, today feels pretty flat by comparison, doesn’t it?

In fact, it might be time to post the story of the shy moose just for levity purposes.

Birthdays

In order to announe the 1 year birthday of WVS, Sam has put together a collage of the years photos. Obviously photography is a very subjective thing, but I find I like far more of Sam’s photos than I dislike, which seems like a pretty good average, in the scheme of things.

Also, my father is 60 today, so I’ll be off to the sunny climes of Oxford for the weekend, and taking him off to the Hopper exhibition at Tate Modern tomorrow. Of course, in a glorious fit of timing, it means I’m not going to be able to make Sevitz‘s Braai (Barbecue, to those not in the know) which is a real bummer.

It also means I’m not likely to be updating d4d™ for a couple of days – in fact, I likely won’t be back ’til Monday afternoon, so sometime after that an update will happen. However, I’ll write some stuff over the weekend, and then probably load a splurge on at once. (if that’s not a vile image)

Answering the Questions

Well, the junction is now passed, and a route has been chosen.

None of the suggestions were anywhere near right – although I’m impressed at your levels of imagination! But now is the time when all will be revealed.

Over the last couple of months, I’ve found someone who is already very important to me. We’ve been friends for a long time, but things are developing into something way past friendship. The entire surrounding situation is a timing nightmare – she’s just starting a divorce, and if everything came out now her ex would be in a prime position to screw things up and make life incredibly awkward and nasty. So I won’t be giving away much on that score – and that’s also why I’ve been more enigmatic than usual of late. So yes, the timing’s an utter bastard, but if we get through this bit then the rest is likely to be far easier – the old “What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger” gambit.

In the past I’ve not always been sensible (I know I should be, but well, c’est la vie) and so obviously there’s been a potential for all things communicable. She’s important enough to me already that I felt that before things go past a point of no return, it was better to have a clean bill of health, particularly for your friend and mine, the HIV virus.

And that’s what today was about – the results from that test. If it had come back positive, there would still have been plenty of options, but it would also have closed off some things. If it were negative then obviously other avenues were open.

The path has been chosen. It’s come back negative, and so there’s a whole lot of other stuff to deal with over the next few months. All good stuff, with luck. There’s the potential here for a future that I hadn’t expected, even at the start of this year – and I’m relieved beyond belief that my previous life hasn’t fucked up the chances that are here for the future.

I was 99% sure that the result would be negative. But that 1% chance was still enough that taking the test was the right thing to do. That 1% chance could have screwed up not just my own life, if it’d been ignored. And for me, that would have been utterly unacceptable. But the stress came in with knowing how often those 1%s have risen up in the past to bite me in the arse. This time – thankfully – they didn’t.

I want to say thank you to all the people who commented yesterday without knowing what was going on, and to those today who have helped keep my mind off what’s been utterly unavoidable, the potential road-smash that was looming ahead.

And now we just have to see where life goes from here.

Bloody Hell

Amazingly, two posts ago (“Waiting”) was number 1,850. According to my blogger profile I’ve now written something like 220,000 words (which makes me no Mike, but it’s not too shabby either) It also means I’m on my way to being a Wordy Twat, with an average of 120 words per post. Blummin’ ‘eck.

Jumping on the Bandwagon

In the meantime, while waiting for that bloody crossroads, I couldn’t resist the personality test, as recommended by Dragon, among others. Yeah, it’s a meme. So shoot me.

Wackiness: 40/100
Rationality: 46/100
Constructiveness: 42/100
Leadership: 36/100

You are an SEDF–Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.

Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well–even those you have known a long time–because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.

You are not to be messed with. You may explode.

I’m saying nothing else. Well, not on this subject anyway. I’ll let you lot do that. *Grin*

Waiting

Sometime after 4.30 or so today, I’ll post more about life-altering stuff. ‘Til then, random gibberish. Some things never change.

Actually, nadgers to it – let’s have some fun. Go on, guess what’s going on and what I’m waiting to find out. If anyone gets it spot on, I’ll know they’ve cheated. *grin* But yeah, go for it. No posts will be deleted.

Impulsive

I don’t know why I love these so much, but after thinking about it for a while, I think I may just have to buy some. No idea where they’d go yet, and the cable is pretty long – but they really do appeal to me a lot.

UPDATED : I’ve ordered some. Not from Debenhams, as they appear to be a) out of stock, and b) fucking expensive, so instead I’ve used this site – £18.50, and no postage/packing. Me likey. Just have to wait and see now.